With 2020 soon approaching, I wanted to write about the hardest part of New Year’s eve when you have cerebral palsy.
For me, the hardest part of New years eve would always have to be my bad reaction when it comes to noise due to my spastic Cerebral Palsy I tend to have these movements when I hear loud noises such as Champagne bottle popping, people screaming, and loud music coming from a stereo.
I jump out of my wheelchair because my body becomes anxious and startled by what’s going on around me and it something that I’ve had trouble with my entire life. Especially with the way people react to my jumping, some people laugh some people stare and give me a dirty look and having to deal with that has lowered my self-esteem just a little bit over the years.
Being Reminded That I am Different
It is hard on me to go out on New Year’s eve because it’s the one night of the year that I’m reminded that I’m different and that I do have this condition.
And not everyone in society is going to expect it or see you as an average human, so that’s the hardest part about it but I try not to let it stop me from starting the New year with a smile.
It does get to a point where I’m just wondering if my body will ever be a ‘normal body’ where I won’t have to worry about this part of my body where I jump and people stare at me because they don’t know what else to do. It gets annoying being the constantly different one from most people for once I wish I wasn’t being stared at as if you’re an alien from outer space.
Dealing with this issue is apart of Cerebral Palsy, but sometimes I wish that I didn’t have this body that I can’t control that way I could enjoy News Years Eve as everyone else does without having the constant worry of people judging me for my cerebral palsy and my body movements.
I truly hope that one day, I just could go out on New Years’ Eve and not worry about all these things that I worry about each year. I want to live a normal life where my body doesn’t act any way it wants to at any given point and time. But until then, I will continue to celebrate New Year’s the way I’ve always had throughout my whole life.
I will continue to celebrate New Year’s the way I’ve always had on wheels curious, with a bang.
Tylia Flores is a 24-year-old born with cerebral palsy. Although her condition has affected her mobility, it has never affected her will and determination to make a difference in the world. Through her many life challenges and obstacles, she discovered her passion for writing. Tylia’s goal in life is to share her stories with the world.